Our Miracle

Today we complete 7 years since we said “I do” and it’s a little over 7 months since Keanah came into this world. My heart is filled with gratitude for the amazing journey we’ve been on so far. Biblically, the number 7 is often considered a symbol of completeness and perfection. And through the ups and downs, through the days and nights I’ve fought with the Lord, asking Him “Why Lord???”, as I look back today, I can definitely say that so far He has made things beautiful, perfect and complete in HIS time. 

I thought today is a perfect opportunity to share our journey with you through 7 major miracles that tested and deepened my faith. Both Ana and myself were drawn to share our journey so that when Keanah grows up we have this to share with her without missing any details as to why we call her our miracle.

Miracle 1: Pain
Our journey starts in June 2020 when we first conceived. We were so so happy, we had been trying for little less than a year. However, our hearts broke when we went for our ultrasound in the 7-8th week and heard no heartbeat. Our gynaec told us that it’s a blighted ovum and there’s nothing to worry. We then conceived again in April 2021. The challenging part this time was that I was down with Covid. Again, no heartbeat in the 7-8th week.  We were really upset this time and the worst part is we had to deal with it alone for sometime as I was in isolation. Our gynaec made us do a full set of tests to figure out why the foetus wasn’t growing. We then got to know that Ana has a condition where her immunity is high. It was treating the foetus as a foreign body and hence attacking it. Why do I say this is a miracle? Well if not diagnosed, her high immunity would eventually lead to conditions like autoimmune diseases. It’s good we could deal with this now so that we don’t have to suffer with other catastrophic consequences. 

Miracle 2: Conception
In July 2022, we had decided to move to the US for a few years. Everyone kept asking me why aren’t you going there and it seemed like a good time to make the move. God had other plans! 

On August 10, Mama’s birthday, Ana woke up feeling very sick. And then got even more cranky as she had planned to do a few things to celebrate her Mama’s birthday and now couldn’t do anything. Towards the afternoon, we did a test and got to know we’re pregnant! Our plan to move went out of the window and our focus now was solely on ensuring things go ahead with all that we learned from our past two experiences. 

Miracle 3: Finding Dr. Payal
Even though we started on all the medication as prescribed by our gynaec, when we went for the ultrasound in the sixth week, we didn’t hear the heartbeat. We visited our gynaec and we weren’t happy when we left her clinic. 

Recently a new maternity hospital, Motherhood, had opened just near our place. So we decided to visit them for a second opinion. Since I could go only in the evening (because of work!), we saw Dr. Payal available. I quickly checked online and saw good reviews about her. When we met her, both Ana and I immediately felt she is so much like my sister Melanie. At once we felt at home and comfortable with her. 

We spent over 45 minutes explaining to her everything. She patiently and calmly listened to us. And told us to continue the medication and do the ultrasound again on 1 September. When we left her cabin we both knew that this is the doctor who we would love to continue with. She made us feel understood, answered all our questions so well and assured us that we’re in the right hands. I don’t think we’ve ever had such an experience with a doctor. It was different, felt perfect for us and we both trusted her completely. We don’t know what we would have done without her and her ever positive attitude. She played an important part in our journey and words aren’t enough to make anyone understand how much she means to the both of us. 

Miracle 4: The Heartbeat
On 1 September we went for the ultrasound. We’ve been for 6 ultrasounds before this one and I knew Ana was nervous, scared and tensed. I was a wreck too but I had to appear strong for her, being positive. Before leaving I had a quick chat with Shweta, my work colleague who has become a very close friend. She told me “I’m praying, I know everything will go well this time and I want a girl!” 

Ana went in for the ultrasound at Motherhood and my heart was in my mouth when the nurse came out in a matter of minutes. I then realised she came to call me in as well. This was the first time I’d be in the room for the ultrasound. The previous ones, at other hospitals, didn’t allow me in. 

When the Dr started, we heard the heartbeat for the very first time. It was music to my ears, the best thing I had ever heard till date. Tears rolled down my face with joy and I almost jumped off my stool to hug the doctor! We were over the moon!

The tough part was from then till February, Ana had to take injections everyday along with blood thinners to help ensure there’s good blood supply going to the foetus. The daily injections changed to alternate days after November. Giving those injections every time with a brave face is definitely one of the most difficult things I’ve had to do, but Ana had to endure much more, bearing all that pain in addition to all the changes taking place in her body with the baby growing inside her. It’s amazing how situations bring out so much strength that we have within us. 

Miracle 5: Special? Of course!
In mid-October our gynaec sent us for our NT scan. It’s a test where the nuchal fluid behind the baby’s neck is measured. A high level indicates that there’s a 80% chance of your baby having genetic defects like Down syndrome. Our hearts broke when we saw our reading. It was 3.92, whereas the normal is not more than 2.5. We were so upset. And when our gynaec said this is the highest she’s ever seen, I was a mess. We cried bitterly when we returned. That period is probably the most I’ve fought with God. Why all this when we do so much for you and the church? Why!?

I wasn’t happy with the test, so Dr. Payal sent us to one of the best fetal specialists in Pune, Dr. Pooja Lodha. Our appointment was at 1pm but we finally went in at around 4pm. The NT this time was 2.6, still high. But again, Dr. Pooja took her time to explain everything to us in great detail. We had two issues, one where the pressure at the artery supplying blood to baby was high. And secondly there were multiple fibroids. She said it’ll be a miracle if we have a normal delivery. 

Dr. Pooja is definitely a gem of a person and absolutely fantastic at what she does. Again we were blessed with the best. What we loved the most are the lovely pics she shared of baby at almost every visit of ours. 

Since the level was still high Dr. Payal then told us that since this scan is only 80% accurate and could also be a false positive, there are additional tests. The most accurate one is where they extract fluid from the foetus to test. It’s a risky procedure with a chance of miscarriage. I then asked her what is the point of doing all these tests. Anyway it’s a genetic issue and there’s nothing we with can do. So she replied that if we’re sure it’s a genetic issue you have the option to abort. I immediately told her there’s no way we’re aborting this baby. We’ve struggled to get here and we will accept it. It’s a gift from God. And moreover our religion doesn’t allow us to abort. So she still advised us to do the tests as we will have peace of mind if it’s all good, rather than stressing for the remaining 6 months wondering what’s going to happen.

We came home, discussed with each other and with our immediate family. Ana and I then decided that we won’t do the tests. We had already done enough of tests so far and we trusted God completely. The miracle? We did the genetic tests after Keanah was born and the reports came back completely normal! When we shared this with Dr. Payal, she told us the whole team at Motherhood rejoiced when they heard about the report. She then smiled and added “good comes to those who do good” 

Miracle 6: Amniotic Cocktail
In February, at 32 weeks, we did our ultrasound with Dr. Pooja followed by our visit to Dr. Payal. We got a little startled when Dr said that Ana needs to get admitted as the amniotic fluid level is very low. It’s 5 whereas it’s supposed to be 15. After Ana got admitted Dr told me that if the levels don’t come up we will have to deliver immediately. However, Ana was on blood thinners and injections till that point. We needed her to be off them for at least 6-7 days before we can operate her. Miraculously the high pressure at the artery connecting the foetus was normal for the first time ever! If that was still high we would have had one more complication to deal with. Ana was given drips to increase her amniotic fluid. The fluid was thick and the drips were very painful. 

That evening I came home for a quick bath and to collect a few things. I fell to my knees and begged God to bring up the amniotic levels. That’s the best outcome for us. Thankfully it went up to 10 over the next 3-4 days. We were so relieved. However we had to go back every alternate day to get those extremely painful amniotic cocktails to maintain the fluid levels. I don’t understand how Ana had the strength to put on a brave face through it all.

Miracle 7: 26 March
We visited Dr. Payal at our 36 week mark and she said baby is doing well, why do you want to suffer with those painful drips any longer? Baby is ready, let’s admit Ana on 25th late night and try inducing. By morning if we’re not successful, we will do a c-section. We weren’t expecting it to be so soon. I remember talking to my cousin Neisha about a few things regarding the delivery just before we got to know it’s going to happen in a matter of hours! 

At midnight we got admitted to Motherhood. And just as Ana entered the labour room, she went naturally into labour. Dr. Payal who was with Ana said “baby also knew that it’s time to come out!”  After around 11 hours, Keanah was born, natural delivery, a miracle in Dr. Pooja’s words! And Shweta’s wish was answered, she got her girl! 😊

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Many who were present at Keanah’s baptism heard us singing Michael Buble’s “Forever now”. And both Ana and I were very emotional. I was overwhelmed with emotions as I sang the lines “you’ve got so much strength inside you, a strength we pray you’ll never need”. After all we had gone through, these words just meant a lot, we identified so strongly with them. We wouldn’t want Keanah or anyone to have these experiences. And yet we’re so grateful because this journey has definitely strengthened our relationship with each other and more importantly with God. 

Even though the journey has been something I was never prepared for, He made sure that He sent his angels to take care of us. Our families have been our strongest pillars of strength through it all, they stormed heaven with their prayers and have been with us at every step of the way. Dr. Payal and Dr. Pooja were heaven sent, came in at the right time when we needed them the most and hence we always knew we were in the best of hands always. So many of our family and friends showed up when we needed them the most. The community at Mount Carmel’s and our priests at our parish along with our Sunday school teachers and choir kids prayed fervently for us, we’re eternally grateful to all of them for their prayers. It’s amazing how much love, prayers and support we’ve been showered with on this journey.

As we hold our precious little Keanah in our arms, we are filled with gratitude for the incredible journey that brought us to where we are today. The challenges and triumphs along the way have made this experience all the more profound and beautiful. Our hearts are full, and we can’t wait to embrace the adventure that lies ahead as a family. This miraculous journey has just begun, and we are eager to see where it takes us.